My days have begun to run together and I've been off a day. I thought yesterday was today and that tomorrow was Saturday. I think all the sun I got while outside for the past two days have gotten to me.
So electrofishing was a lot of fun. If I had to do that every day for the rest of my life, I don't think I'd mind. And yes, I know you're thinking "Isn't that illegal?" but it's not when you have a permit.
We went to two different sites and caught a decent amount of fish. We loaded up all of our gear into two kayaks and a canoe and rowed down the river to the site of interest. We wore waders so that we wouldn't electrocute ourselves, and accidentally falling into the water doesn't hurt as bad as I thought. It happened once or twice and it feels like a small tingling. I think being electrocuted from an electrical outlet hurts way more than when falling into the electrified water. I think I prefer the netting of the fish and not so much as being in charge of shocking them. Everything's a competition when you're in the field, so competing for fish is a lot more fun.
We also helped out one of the Biology professors with his mussel surveying. It's fun to be on your hands and knees with water up to your face searching blindly for mussels sticking out of the gravel and sand. However, my thinning hair failed me again and I got a nasty sunburn on my head. This is probably the worst sunburn ever and it hurts like all get out. Was it worth being outside for almost ten hours, getting biten by horse flies, ramming your legs into hidden logs in the water, getting to know people and laughing at ridiculously stupid things because the sun has melted your brain? Totally.
My final for my nutrition class is tomorrow, which means there is only about a week and a half before the semester starts. I really want the summer to keep going so I can stay outside and love the sun for a while longer. However, the fall must come and so does my last fall semester at UTT. This is my last chance to make friends and befriend professors and make good grades. Yes, I do have the spring semester left, but by that time I'll be too occuppied with figuring out what to do with my life in the future. I know my friend Melissa is freaking out about the same thing, so we're in the same boat. Maybe in some weird alignment of the stars, we will both figure out where we're going in time to enjoy the coming semester.
Yesterday my friend Lisa came back into town after being gone for about two months at her new grad school. It was so good seeing her. We're going to Six Flags on Saturday and then when we get back we're going to Outlaws to party. I haven't been to a bar in this area, so it shall be an experience. I just hope to get hit on and have people buy me drinks because I can't afford them :)
Next week, I work every single day. This is probably good for me trying to eat healthier, since at work there is no food. However, that means I'll be uber tired by the time next Sunday rolls around. But seven days of eight hours means overtime pay so it's all good. I'm thinking about starting to run long distance again. The term "run" should be used lightly, since my run is probably everyone else's jog. Once I get my puppy back, I'll start jogging with him in the evenings so we both get some good exercise. I thought about maybe running the Tyler Half, but that might be asking for trouble. Seeing as how I haven't ran more than three miles in the past six months, it's not likely that I can magically pull out 13.1 miles in two months. Miracles do happen, but this is one that is very doubtful. I'll at least attempt to try and maybe I'll run one of the shorter races they have during that weekend.
Goals for Tomorrow:
1) Sleep in
2) Eat healthy all day
3) Make at least a B on my final
4) Jog some distance at a reasonable speed
5) Workout with Melissa
6) Organize my house
7) Buy books for school
8) Go to bed decently early
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Monday, August 10, 2009
Monday Monday Monday
I guess those night shifts made my schedule off, because I definitely forgot about updating this. My life has not improved in entertainment value in the past couple of days. All I have done is work, go to the gym, and sleep.
I finished "Finding Alaska" and I have to say it was pretty good. Not a bad quick read and the writing style was nice. I might pick up another John Green book to try since I was informed that not all of them end up with death. I really want to read Catcher in the Rye again, but my copy is at my Mum's house. I'm just in that Holden Caulfield mood I guess.
My workouts have been pretty consistent this past week. I think I need to kick it up a notch and start doubling them though. Melissa and I ride the stationary bike for half an hour and then lift weights to work out backs, chest, and arms on most days. Every now and then we put a little leg workout in there, and I do believe her favorite is the hip adductor machine, that dirty hooker. The difference in my arms is nice and it's nice to feel stronger. Now all I need to do is tweak my eating habits so I can get that six pack I've always wanted. I think if I add an hour of cardio along with my workout with Melissa, I'll be on the right track. Maybe I'll finally be able to catch up with all of those sweet cross-country runners.
My nutrition class is almost over. I have my final this week and two assignments left. This class was pretty fun and easy. It's probably the only class that I've taken online that has required the least maintenance. It's mainly because I already know most of the material, but it is fun to learn new things. For example, today I learned the that pregnant women should gain around 30 lbs by the time they deliver and 2 lbs of that should be in their breasts. Score!
Two more weeks before school starts and I am ready to get my schedule finalized. I still haven't been able to get into an A&P lab, but I think if I can't, I'll just take the class. It's something I enjoy and hopefully someone will drop so I can get into the class I want and have a nicer schedule. Also, I might be the TA for Micro and so I need to figure that all out too. I hopefully will be able to confuse the poor micro students and be sly about telling them if their unknowns are correct :)
Tomorrow is electrofishing at 8:30 in the am. I'm going to try and wake myself up at 7:30 to go do sprints, but I accidentally took a nap earlier and so I probably won't sleep too well. I'm quite excited about being in the field again. I've missed it so. Let's hope my fish skills are as good as they were in the semester and that I don't get electrocuted :)
I finished "Finding Alaska" and I have to say it was pretty good. Not a bad quick read and the writing style was nice. I might pick up another John Green book to try since I was informed that not all of them end up with death. I really want to read Catcher in the Rye again, but my copy is at my Mum's house. I'm just in that Holden Caulfield mood I guess.
My workouts have been pretty consistent this past week. I think I need to kick it up a notch and start doubling them though. Melissa and I ride the stationary bike for half an hour and then lift weights to work out backs, chest, and arms on most days. Every now and then we put a little leg workout in there, and I do believe her favorite is the hip adductor machine, that dirty hooker. The difference in my arms is nice and it's nice to feel stronger. Now all I need to do is tweak my eating habits so I can get that six pack I've always wanted. I think if I add an hour of cardio along with my workout with Melissa, I'll be on the right track. Maybe I'll finally be able to catch up with all of those sweet cross-country runners.
My nutrition class is almost over. I have my final this week and two assignments left. This class was pretty fun and easy. It's probably the only class that I've taken online that has required the least maintenance. It's mainly because I already know most of the material, but it is fun to learn new things. For example, today I learned the that pregnant women should gain around 30 lbs by the time they deliver and 2 lbs of that should be in their breasts. Score!
Two more weeks before school starts and I am ready to get my schedule finalized. I still haven't been able to get into an A&P lab, but I think if I can't, I'll just take the class. It's something I enjoy and hopefully someone will drop so I can get into the class I want and have a nicer schedule. Also, I might be the TA for Micro and so I need to figure that all out too. I hopefully will be able to confuse the poor micro students and be sly about telling them if their unknowns are correct :)
Tomorrow is electrofishing at 8:30 in the am. I'm going to try and wake myself up at 7:30 to go do sprints, but I accidentally took a nap earlier and so I probably won't sleep too well. I'm quite excited about being in the field again. I've missed it so. Let's hope my fish skills are as good as they were in the semester and that I don't get electrocuted :)
Thursday, August 6, 2009
Noonday Writings
I survived my two days of night shifts! It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, and there was actually some down time when I got to converse with the doctors. It's always fun to talk to them about what I should do: Should I try to go to Med school? Or should I go to P.A. school first? One of the P.A.'s told me that he deeply regretted not going to Med school, and actually got into a school four years ago, but he couldn't fathom giving up his income to go. They also of course pointed out that if I ever wanted to have children or a family, that PA school probably was best.
That's one thing that I think about, but I really don't have anyone to plan that sort of thing with. I'm not dating anyone, and the one person who I can't seem to get out of my head hasn't talked to me in weeks. I'm undecided about having children, but I figure I can always adopt a child if I waited until I was too old to have them myself. I think decisions of this sort would be easier if I was in a position where I was dating someone for a long time and we were thinking of marriage. Since I'm not, maybe I should be a bachelorette and say that I'll never have these things...at least not anytime soon. Could I find someone to love me and have children when I'm over 30? Is this possible? This is a 20-generation area where people get married out of high school. I'll probably be the last of my friends to get married at this point. However, marriage shouldn't be that important to someone...but for some reason, I seriously have considered PA school just so I could possibly have a life and a family earlier in life. I just don't know.
When I got off work this morning, I walked into the parking lot and the nice security guard walked me to my car. I have to say that I really appreciated him calling me cute or pretty or whatever he said. Lately I've been feeling like I stick out and pretty wouldn't be the first thought that would come to mind if I looked in the mirror. Thanks security guard guy. Thanks for making sure no one kidnapped me, even though I'm sure they still could have because let's face it, we're about the same size. But mostly, thanks for telling me I'm pretty :)
After listening to hellogoodbye for so long, I've decided I want a eukelele again. I had one as a small child, but to have one now would be sweet. I could write ridiculous little songs about people and sing them to small crowds with my teeny case out so people could throw money at me. I had a dream that I wrote songs about some of the people who matter the most to me, but I don't remember any of the lyrics. Ukelele's are surely cheaper than a guitar, so maybe if I find some extra work somewhere I can afford to buy one.
As I mentioned before, I am reading "Finding Alaska" by John Green. As I got further into the reading, all I could do was think of the boy in Austin that I haven't talked to in almost a month. I don't know why, but I think in my sleepy state, I get super emotional. All rational thinking is slowed and emotions come easier. I almost starting crying reading this book, not necessarily because it was sad, but I had this horrible feeling that something like this would happen to me. Not me dying, or coming close, but rather have someone who I care deeply about but don't really know die and me feel absolutely horrible for not doing more when I could have. Perhaps I felt this because I was so tired, but it really bothered me. Oh, and Melissa, you hooker, what is with you suggesting things that seem so happy and enjoyable in the beginning that take a turn for the worse! Steve Prefontaine for example here. And now this book. How could you.
Today I'll have to do some Nutrition homework, but that won't take long. I'm going to workout with Melissa at some point today and then hopefully finish this book. Work tomorrow at noon, so I don't have to go to bed too terribly early. Hopefully my sleeping schedule will readjust and I won't fall asleep tomorrow at work.
That's one thing that I think about, but I really don't have anyone to plan that sort of thing with. I'm not dating anyone, and the one person who I can't seem to get out of my head hasn't talked to me in weeks. I'm undecided about having children, but I figure I can always adopt a child if I waited until I was too old to have them myself. I think decisions of this sort would be easier if I was in a position where I was dating someone for a long time and we were thinking of marriage. Since I'm not, maybe I should be a bachelorette and say that I'll never have these things...at least not anytime soon. Could I find someone to love me and have children when I'm over 30? Is this possible? This is a 20-generation area where people get married out of high school. I'll probably be the last of my friends to get married at this point. However, marriage shouldn't be that important to someone...but for some reason, I seriously have considered PA school just so I could possibly have a life and a family earlier in life. I just don't know.
When I got off work this morning, I walked into the parking lot and the nice security guard walked me to my car. I have to say that I really appreciated him calling me cute or pretty or whatever he said. Lately I've been feeling like I stick out and pretty wouldn't be the first thought that would come to mind if I looked in the mirror. Thanks security guard guy. Thanks for making sure no one kidnapped me, even though I'm sure they still could have because let's face it, we're about the same size. But mostly, thanks for telling me I'm pretty :)
After listening to hellogoodbye for so long, I've decided I want a eukelele again. I had one as a small child, but to have one now would be sweet. I could write ridiculous little songs about people and sing them to small crowds with my teeny case out so people could throw money at me. I had a dream that I wrote songs about some of the people who matter the most to me, but I don't remember any of the lyrics. Ukelele's are surely cheaper than a guitar, so maybe if I find some extra work somewhere I can afford to buy one.
As I mentioned before, I am reading "Finding Alaska" by John Green. As I got further into the reading, all I could do was think of the boy in Austin that I haven't talked to in almost a month. I don't know why, but I think in my sleepy state, I get super emotional. All rational thinking is slowed and emotions come easier. I almost starting crying reading this book, not necessarily because it was sad, but I had this horrible feeling that something like this would happen to me. Not me dying, or coming close, but rather have someone who I care deeply about but don't really know die and me feel absolutely horrible for not doing more when I could have. Perhaps I felt this because I was so tired, but it really bothered me. Oh, and Melissa, you hooker, what is with you suggesting things that seem so happy and enjoyable in the beginning that take a turn for the worse! Steve Prefontaine for example here. And now this book. How could you.
Today I'll have to do some Nutrition homework, but that won't take long. I'm going to workout with Melissa at some point today and then hopefully finish this book. Work tomorrow at noon, so I don't have to go to bed too terribly early. Hopefully my sleeping schedule will readjust and I won't fall asleep tomorrow at work.
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Flipping The Clock
So yesterday was my first night shift in the ED. It wasn't too bad actually, but I definitely was very tired once 3 am rolled around. Luckily for me, the computer system had to be updated so I got to go home two hours early :) Kinda sucks in the money department, but oh well. While I was at work I started reading "Finding Alaska" by John Green. So far so good. I'm only on page forty, but I'll let you know how I like it once I finish.
Last night also marks the second time my looks have been discriminated against. All I have to say is that that person could only wish that I wanted to look at her junk. I'm going to have to start hanging out with more boys in public and make them hold my hand or something. It's ridiculous what a short haircut will make people think.
I went and worked out with my friend Melissa today around noonish. We try to go every day but with my ridiculous work schedule, it makes it hard. She's trying to lose weight and I want a six pack so we have our goals. Personally, I think she's doing better than I am, but I just need a kick in the rear and to stop giving into temptation. If I can wear the outfit that I want for the first day of school, I'll be happy :)
Yesterday I found out that I get to go electrofishing next Tuesday and Wednesday. I'm super excited because I love the river and I really just want to jump in and swim. Maybe I'll save the fun for after the research part, but I'm glad that I'll be out in the sun finally. Hopefully I'll be helpful and perhaps make some new friends. Research was how I made most of my friends last summer, so maybe this will be another opportunity :) It's only two days, but a lot can happen in that time.
One of my favorite bands just put out a new single and I love it :) Hellogoodbye's new song called "When We First Met" and it's freaking sweet. Perhaps you'll like it: http://bit.ly/94vmG
Okay so I have half an hour before I have to get ready for my second night shift. Let's hope this one goes as well as the first. I'll have another new doctor, and hopefully he'll be just as nice as the one I had last night. I really like the fact that the two people I work with during my shift are nice and actually talk to me. It makes the time go by and it's a lot more fun with conversation. Here's hoping for the best.
Last night also marks the second time my looks have been discriminated against. All I have to say is that that person could only wish that I wanted to look at her junk. I'm going to have to start hanging out with more boys in public and make them hold my hand or something. It's ridiculous what a short haircut will make people think.
I went and worked out with my friend Melissa today around noonish. We try to go every day but with my ridiculous work schedule, it makes it hard. She's trying to lose weight and I want a six pack so we have our goals. Personally, I think she's doing better than I am, but I just need a kick in the rear and to stop giving into temptation. If I can wear the outfit that I want for the first day of school, I'll be happy :)
Yesterday I found out that I get to go electrofishing next Tuesday and Wednesday. I'm super excited because I love the river and I really just want to jump in and swim. Maybe I'll save the fun for after the research part, but I'm glad that I'll be out in the sun finally. Hopefully I'll be helpful and perhaps make some new friends. Research was how I made most of my friends last summer, so maybe this will be another opportunity :) It's only two days, but a lot can happen in that time.
One of my favorite bands just put out a new single and I love it :) Hellogoodbye's new song called "When We First Met" and it's freaking sweet. Perhaps you'll like it: http://bit.ly/94vmG
Okay so I have half an hour before I have to get ready for my second night shift. Let's hope this one goes as well as the first. I'll have another new doctor, and hopefully he'll be just as nice as the one I had last night. I really like the fact that the two people I work with during my shift are nice and actually talk to me. It makes the time go by and it's a lot more fun with conversation. Here's hoping for the best.
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Slow Weekend
I just realized that when I started this blog forever ago that I had planned on making it a photo blog. Oops. I guess I should start taking more pictures! I'll probably have to start doing stuff too so there will be something photo worthy.
This weekend has been pretty bland. Didn't go anywhere or do anything. The highlight for me was getting to sleep in until noon and not have to worry about being on time anywhere. I like being lazy, but then again I wish I had some motivation to do something. I went to the store today and stocked up on some fresh fruits and vegetables. Hopefully what I bought will sustain me for the next week since I'm on a tight budget. I've never really had to worry about money, but the financial aid for the Fall semester isn't looking so good.
I had a dream last night that I decided to write a letter to the boy that I felt this deep connection with, even though I don't really even know him. I don't know if you'd call it love at first sight, but there was this emotion that was new and explosive. The song "Nineteen" by Tegan and Sara explains this perfectly. Anyhow, in my dream I wrote him a letter telling him all of my thoughts and feelings. In reality, it seems absurd to do something like this. However, I'm tempted to go Forest Gump style and write a letter every week. What will I say? How will they be accepted? Questions I don't quite know the answers to, but something in me wants to put myself out there. Then again, I could simply be distant and non-insistent. Maybe my dreams will tell me what to do.
Have you ever thought you had a sixth sense? I don't really know if this counts, but over the past couple of months I've developed a sense to know when something is terribly wrong with someone I care about. The only sad part is, I don't ever know who it is and the only indication I get is a horrible nauseating feeling. I went a whole month with every day being filled with nausea and calling people to find out if something was wrong. It ended up being my ex half the time, and other times it was people who I don't see all that much. I guess the world has finally found a more peaceful rhythm since I haven't experienced as many sick feelings. If I can keep up with this "sixth sense" I hope that I can get good enough to realize who it is that's having a horrible day or is in trouble. I know it sounds crazy, so think whatever you'd like.
Tegan and Sara is an awesome band if you haven't heard of them. Right now, I'm listening to "The Con" which is a great cd and one of my favorite songs on the album. You should check them out, maybe you'll like them. I don't even know if anyone reads this, but if you do, let me know if you like them.
This weekend has been pretty bland. Didn't go anywhere or do anything. The highlight for me was getting to sleep in until noon and not have to worry about being on time anywhere. I like being lazy, but then again I wish I had some motivation to do something. I went to the store today and stocked up on some fresh fruits and vegetables. Hopefully what I bought will sustain me for the next week since I'm on a tight budget. I've never really had to worry about money, but the financial aid for the Fall semester isn't looking so good.
I had a dream last night that I decided to write a letter to the boy that I felt this deep connection with, even though I don't really even know him. I don't know if you'd call it love at first sight, but there was this emotion that was new and explosive. The song "Nineteen" by Tegan and Sara explains this perfectly. Anyhow, in my dream I wrote him a letter telling him all of my thoughts and feelings. In reality, it seems absurd to do something like this. However, I'm tempted to go Forest Gump style and write a letter every week. What will I say? How will they be accepted? Questions I don't quite know the answers to, but something in me wants to put myself out there. Then again, I could simply be distant and non-insistent. Maybe my dreams will tell me what to do.
Have you ever thought you had a sixth sense? I don't really know if this counts, but over the past couple of months I've developed a sense to know when something is terribly wrong with someone I care about. The only sad part is, I don't ever know who it is and the only indication I get is a horrible nauseating feeling. I went a whole month with every day being filled with nausea and calling people to find out if something was wrong. It ended up being my ex half the time, and other times it was people who I don't see all that much. I guess the world has finally found a more peaceful rhythm since I haven't experienced as many sick feelings. If I can keep up with this "sixth sense" I hope that I can get good enough to realize who it is that's having a horrible day or is in trouble. I know it sounds crazy, so think whatever you'd like.
Tegan and Sara is an awesome band if you haven't heard of them. Right now, I'm listening to "The Con" which is a great cd and one of my favorite songs on the album. You should check them out, maybe you'll like them. I don't even know if anyone reads this, but if you do, let me know if you like them.
Friday, July 31, 2009
Fridays Are Never Exciting
Waking up at 4 am is always so difficult when you don't go to bed until after 11. Work was the usual fun filled abdominal and chest pains with a mix of elderly people with ams. I really didn't do much of anything besides work. Nine hour shifts seem to suck all of the energy out of me. I came home, ordered pizza, and took a nap. At least I'll have a few days off so I can study for my upcoming Nutrition test.
My good friend Dave called me from California this evening. It's nice to know someone still thinks of me :) I'm quite jealous that he gets to do research in California while I'm stuck here in Texas. I love Texas and all, but California has always been a dream vacation place for me. Anyways, Dave won't be back in Texas until after the semester starts this Fall. Sad day. He promised to hang out with me when he gets back though, so I'll just have to hold out until then.
Tomorrow's plans to go to Six Flags have once again been rescheduled. It's supposed to rain and so we decided we'll go when the weather's supposed to be really nice. Tickets are only $25 right now, so hopefully by the time we go I can find someone to go with me. I don't want to be that loser person who has to ride all the rides by their self because no one likes them enough to go with them. Maybe I can talk someone into it. Six Flags is a good way to get to know someone, right? You have a couple hour drive to get there, then spend all day riding rides, and then the car ride home to talk and such. Maybe I'll meet someone new and ask them to go. Who knows.
So, August starts tomorrow. I think this is a good time to start something new. For August, I decided I'll try and get back into the shape I was back in May. May was when I got uber depressed and did nothing but workout and not eat crap. I was looking pretty darn good by June, which was when I went to Schlitterbahn and met the best guy ever. Of course, that didn't work out for me, but I think I need to go back to that fitness. I was happy with myself and I guess my confidence was evident. Here's the plan: I workout every day for at least an hour. Within this hour, I want to do at least 30 mins of cardio and 30 mins of weights. Of course, I did way more time than this back in May, but that's what I'm starting with for now. Along with working out, I have to eat better. No more eating out, or eating junk that my cardiologist would cringe about. Here's hoping I have the self-discipline to do it.
Today's my friend Walter's birthday. I tried to get him to come over, but he said he felt like staying home. Happy birthday Walter, if you ever read this :) Four days from now is another person's birthday, but out of fear of relapsing after not talking to them for three weeks now, I'll restrain from saying anything.
Instead of Six Flags tomorrow, I will hopefully get some Nutrition done, maybe go to the Lake, and workout and eat well. Hope that the Neches goes down so I can possibly go do some research this weekend or Monday.
My good friend Dave called me from California this evening. It's nice to know someone still thinks of me :) I'm quite jealous that he gets to do research in California while I'm stuck here in Texas. I love Texas and all, but California has always been a dream vacation place for me. Anyways, Dave won't be back in Texas until after the semester starts this Fall. Sad day. He promised to hang out with me when he gets back though, so I'll just have to hold out until then.
Tomorrow's plans to go to Six Flags have once again been rescheduled. It's supposed to rain and so we decided we'll go when the weather's supposed to be really nice. Tickets are only $25 right now, so hopefully by the time we go I can find someone to go with me. I don't want to be that loser person who has to ride all the rides by their self because no one likes them enough to go with them. Maybe I can talk someone into it. Six Flags is a good way to get to know someone, right? You have a couple hour drive to get there, then spend all day riding rides, and then the car ride home to talk and such. Maybe I'll meet someone new and ask them to go. Who knows.
So, August starts tomorrow. I think this is a good time to start something new. For August, I decided I'll try and get back into the shape I was back in May. May was when I got uber depressed and did nothing but workout and not eat crap. I was looking pretty darn good by June, which was when I went to Schlitterbahn and met the best guy ever. Of course, that didn't work out for me, but I think I need to go back to that fitness. I was happy with myself and I guess my confidence was evident. Here's the plan: I workout every day for at least an hour. Within this hour, I want to do at least 30 mins of cardio and 30 mins of weights. Of course, I did way more time than this back in May, but that's what I'm starting with for now. Along with working out, I have to eat better. No more eating out, or eating junk that my cardiologist would cringe about. Here's hoping I have the self-discipline to do it.
Today's my friend Walter's birthday. I tried to get him to come over, but he said he felt like staying home. Happy birthday Walter, if you ever read this :) Four days from now is another person's birthday, but out of fear of relapsing after not talking to them for three weeks now, I'll restrain from saying anything.
Instead of Six Flags tomorrow, I will hopefully get some Nutrition done, maybe go to the Lake, and workout and eat well. Hope that the Neches goes down so I can possibly go do some research this weekend or Monday.
Thursday, July 30, 2009
It's Been A While...
Yeah...a lot has happened since my last post. Nothing too interesting, just my own little drama. Let's have a short recap:
-Took the MCAT. Didn't do as well as hoped. Threw away any dreams of being a Dr and then was talked back into it. It's something I'm working on
-My love life has died. My ex is a dirty whore who sleeps with married women and uses craigslist to hook up with people. What the ? Who knew he would turn out to be so much like my father. It's actually very creepy. Why couldn't I have met him a year ago when people tell me he was so different?
-I had a crush that is also unfortunately over. There's always a better girl. I have bad timing and distance is an issue. I think I give up on having relationships for now.
-I started a new job working in the ED of the hospital where I was born. I like it a lot, and I really like the doctors I work with. I'm learning a lot of medical terminology and I can't ever look at anyone without physically examining them in my mind.
So one thing that taking standardized tests has shown me is that I'm a decent writer. That's why I decided I'd try to write in this more. Of course, I'm taking a risk writing a blog where it's public and people can find it. I've done this before and friendships were ruined. I also have to worry about my job being at risk because if they think I'm some psycho they'll fire me. I find it weird that you can be fired simply from what you write in a blog. It's never happened to me personally, but that's gotta suck. So if you disagree with something I say, voice your opinion. I don't mind as long as it's constructive.
Last Friday I decided to cut my hair off. Now for some girls, that means to a little bit above your shoulders. This is not the case. I whacked my hair off and I'm the first girl in my family to have hair above my ears. I really like it, but I do get a lot of looks that aren't so nice. I realize that I took a risk by cutting my hair this short, but I didn't expect to be publicly ridiculed.
For example: I went to McAlister's to eat with a good friend of mine and while I'm eating, these teeny bopper "I wear holister" girls took a picture of me and were laughing and making fun of me. The strong person would ignore it and go on with their life. However, it really bothered me. I realized I have anger issues when I felt like I should go over there and hit them in their cute little blonde faces. However, I restrained and tried to shrug it off. So little girl with a picture of me, I hope you like it. Go ahead and put it on your facebook page and title it with some homo comment if you please. I'm not a homo, but yes I know my hair sends that kind of message. Stereotyping sucks.
Last Friday I also went to a party after I got my hair cut. Half the people didn't recognize me and I got a lot of compliments which was nice. I like getting to parties when most people are already tipsy. It makes conversations easier and a lot more interesting. I have never talked to that many people at a party before. I talked to almost every person there. I talked to one guy in particular who has never talked to me before. Always been a kind of awkward situation because he was friends with my old roomie and I'm not a social butterfly type. He'd come over and I'd just kind of avoid the situation. I always thought he didn't like me, but then again, he could just be like me and avoid people.
We talked about school and his research stuff and he asked me to help him electrocute fish. I really miss being out in the sun all day in a kayak or canoe with nothing to worry about. I'd also get to work with one of my favorite teachers most likely. It'd be sweet if I actually have time to help out with this. Research looks decent on an application, but the fun you have is what makes it worthwhile.
Anyways, things to come soon in my life include a trip to Six Flags hopefully this weekend, lots of working, possible research involving fish, and time at the gym. I'm having some difficulty going to the gym with my work schedule but I'll find a way to fit it in. This chubby bunny needs to get tight so maybe I'll be the first pick instead of the fallback girl.
-Took the MCAT. Didn't do as well as hoped. Threw away any dreams of being a Dr and then was talked back into it. It's something I'm working on
-My love life has died. My ex is a dirty whore who sleeps with married women and uses craigslist to hook up with people. What the ? Who knew he would turn out to be so much like my father. It's actually very creepy. Why couldn't I have met him a year ago when people tell me he was so different?
-I had a crush that is also unfortunately over. There's always a better girl. I have bad timing and distance is an issue. I think I give up on having relationships for now.
-I started a new job working in the ED of the hospital where I was born. I like it a lot, and I really like the doctors I work with. I'm learning a lot of medical terminology and I can't ever look at anyone without physically examining them in my mind.
So one thing that taking standardized tests has shown me is that I'm a decent writer. That's why I decided I'd try to write in this more. Of course, I'm taking a risk writing a blog where it's public and people can find it. I've done this before and friendships were ruined. I also have to worry about my job being at risk because if they think I'm some psycho they'll fire me. I find it weird that you can be fired simply from what you write in a blog. It's never happened to me personally, but that's gotta suck. So if you disagree with something I say, voice your opinion. I don't mind as long as it's constructive.
Last Friday I decided to cut my hair off. Now for some girls, that means to a little bit above your shoulders. This is not the case. I whacked my hair off and I'm the first girl in my family to have hair above my ears. I really like it, but I do get a lot of looks that aren't so nice. I realize that I took a risk by cutting my hair this short, but I didn't expect to be publicly ridiculed.
For example: I went to McAlister's to eat with a good friend of mine and while I'm eating, these teeny bopper "I wear holister" girls took a picture of me and were laughing and making fun of me. The strong person would ignore it and go on with their life. However, it really bothered me. I realized I have anger issues when I felt like I should go over there and hit them in their cute little blonde faces. However, I restrained and tried to shrug it off. So little girl with a picture of me, I hope you like it. Go ahead and put it on your facebook page and title it with some homo comment if you please. I'm not a homo, but yes I know my hair sends that kind of message. Stereotyping sucks.
Last Friday I also went to a party after I got my hair cut. Half the people didn't recognize me and I got a lot of compliments which was nice. I like getting to parties when most people are already tipsy. It makes conversations easier and a lot more interesting. I have never talked to that many people at a party before. I talked to almost every person there. I talked to one guy in particular who has never talked to me before. Always been a kind of awkward situation because he was friends with my old roomie and I'm not a social butterfly type. He'd come over and I'd just kind of avoid the situation. I always thought he didn't like me, but then again, he could just be like me and avoid people.
We talked about school and his research stuff and he asked me to help him electrocute fish. I really miss being out in the sun all day in a kayak or canoe with nothing to worry about. I'd also get to work with one of my favorite teachers most likely. It'd be sweet if I actually have time to help out with this. Research looks decent on an application, but the fun you have is what makes it worthwhile.
Anyways, things to come soon in my life include a trip to Six Flags hopefully this weekend, lots of working, possible research involving fish, and time at the gym. I'm having some difficulty going to the gym with my work schedule but I'll find a way to fit it in. This chubby bunny needs to get tight so maybe I'll be the first pick instead of the fallback girl.
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