Let's Pick Up

Friday was full of exciting cases at the hospital. Bizarre things happen when you least expect them, and Friday seemed to be a continuous flow of it. I really enjoy working there, and I'd probably volunteer if I didn't get paid to do my job. It's good experience and is a nice way to determine whether or not I'm going to want to do this for the rest of my life.

Yesterday I worked again, but it was more of a typical day. After work I went and ate at Fiore with a friend. I've never been there, but it wasn't too bad. I thought it was funny that the hostess was embarrassed about seating us. She made a big deal about not having a table for two people except by the bar. I could really care less where I sit in a restaurant as long as I'm not in the kitchen. Though, the kitchen might be fun, as long as they let me help. Fiore is an Italian restaurant and we ordered a pizza with artichokes and red peppers. I know, I know: It's lame to order a pizza when you go to an Italian place. However, it was highly suggested and it turned out to be decently good. I'd say this is a nice place to go if you're tired of eating at Olive Garden.

Now a change of topic and a little bit of seriousness. Lately, I have been thinking a lot about death. It's probably because I've seen a lot of people die lately, and my grandmother (who I never really knew) died and it has had an effect on my life. Here's the story: My mum has never really been close to her mother and she always joked that she'd be happy when her mother died. I know that she's not happy about it, but it's interesting to see how different things can be without the presence of someone. Now, my mother has been talking to her brother (who she also hasn't talked to in years) and has been helping him out with everything. It's kind of sad that the death of someone is what had to happen for them to talk again. Hopefully my mum doesn't mind me talking about this, but it's different.

Also, I have met a lot of military boys recently and they tell me about what they've seen or done while in service. The fact that one of my friends is about to go into the service has really bothered me. To know the date that he leaves makes you realize that these next couple of months could be the last time I talk to him. I know that's morbid to think of, but it could be reality. I know this is all could be's, and that's not a way to live; to always think of the worse possible scenario. I guess I just care for the safety of people. My basketball coach in high school told me that's why she thought I'd be great at a profession where I take care of people. I'd rather sacrifice my time to help someone in need. If I could enlist and be a medic, I totally would. Instead, I will try my hardest to get to the point that I can practice medicine and take care of the population.

So death is imminent, but at my age people never think that they're going to die. Death could happen at any time, and someone could be taken away in a matter of seconds. Life is precious, and I guess that's just what point in life I'm at. I think about what I'd like to say to people before I die, and maybe I should tell them now so that there won't be any question about how I felt. Living life to the fullest and being honest with everyone seems like the way to go. Insecurities and embarrassment are the two things that probably hold people back. I think this is something that I'm going to work on. I'd prefer there not be any questions when I'm not living anymore, so I hope to make my thoughts and feelings very obvious.

Sorry for that whole splurge there. Just something I needed to write about, and you don't have to read it because you're not forced to. That whole statement makes me want to go workout now. I need to work on my health so that I can make those things possible.

Anyways...I'm going to workout around noon when the gym opens, and then I'm going to watch some football, write a couple of papers, and study for my Anatomy test. I hope your weekend went well dear reader. I greatly appreciate you reading this.

Whew It's Over

Finally done with all my tests! Only sad part is, one of my tests got moved to next Tuesday. At least I'll have some extra time to study :) My lab practical wasn't too bad, but I don't know how well I did. I have an extra incentive to do well in there, since I have already had three years of biology and plus, my lab TA is someone I'd like to impress. I tend to try a little harder when I care about what my teacher thinks. Plus academics are really important to me in the first place.

I also made it to the gym today. It was nice to stretch out my legs and run for a bit on the treadmill. I can tell my lungs haven't recovered from whatever sickness I had because I was sucking wind. I also played a round of racquetball with Jessica and one of the grad students. It was fun and made me miss playing sports. I really want to play basketball now; which I might make my kids at camp this next week play knock-out. That game is fun and I can join in :)

It's only 7 in the evening, and I'm uber tired. I'm going to attempt to sleep early so I can wake up and get some running in before work. I'm hoping lots of orthopedic injuries come in :) Those are my favorite. Not that I want people to hurt themselves or anything, but that type of visit beats out the usual abdominal or chest pain. I think emergency medicine is something I might choose as my specialty, or if I can manage to make it in the orthopedic world, I might do that. First I just need to get into med school!

I'm really excited about throwing my friend a birthday party on Oct 10th. She's never had her own celebration on the account that she's a twin, but this year she shall have her own. I really like doing this sort of thing for people. I hope it goes really well and she likes it. Just need to think of some awesome decorating ideas and things to make :) If you have any ideas, let me know.

This weekend I will hopefully have a chance to catch the Florida Gators game this Saturday at 6pm. I think I may have Sunday off work so that'll give me a chance to catch a NFL game too. This weekend is looking pretty good :)

Week de Examens

This week has gone pretty well thus far. I got back my Chemistry test and I made an A :) I had a Biogeography test Monday, and I probably could have done better, but I didn't feel too horrible about it. Quiz and a test today, which I feel good about both. Now all I have is an A&P lab test Thursday and my week of tests will be over! The lab test will probably be the hardest, but I'll study a lot tonight and tomorrow for it.

So I didn't start running yet... I feel like I'm on empty right now energy wise. However, I do feel the yearning to run. My legs are begging to be used, if you can understand that... Not being active makes me feel horrible. I need to make a schedule as soon as I know what days I must work this next month.

There are far too many distractions in my life right now. 18 hours of classes, 20+ hours of work a week, plus friends and family vying for my attention. I need to just suck it up and do what I know is necessary first, then have fun later.

I just realized I really have nothing to say. I'm kind of bored with my position right now. It's not overly fun or horrible. I want something more, but I'm not sure what that is. Maybe it will show itself soon...

I did have a dream about my ex last night. I don't know why, but I guess I miss that kid. He wasn't a bad person, but we definitely didn't agree on everything. He was kind of creeper in the sexuality department, but I'm pretty sure everyone is. I don't know if I could be his friend or not. I really want to, but it's probably best that I don't. Why is he on my mind so much? He'd probably be happy to know that I miss him, that douchebag. Oh well, if fate have it, we will have our friendship once again.

Besides dreams and tests, that's really all that's gone on. I am on a search for something; something that makes me happy and fulfilled.

Mustachio Pudding

Twitter is an awesome messaging device that lets you keep up with what your friends are doing, pretty much at any time of the day. As we, meaning Melissa, Josh, and I were chilling in our hotel in Dallas, we were reading aloud some tweets. Josh misunderstood the word pistachio for "mustachio" and so now pistachio pudding will forever be known as mustachio pudding. Who likes pistachio pudding? That just sounds gross...

Took my test Friday morning and I felt okay about it. Who knows how well I did. Every time I think I did okay, I do horribly. I'm sure I'll find out on Monday, after I take my first Biogeography test. I've been trying to study for that test, but it hasn't gone very well. I got called into work on Friday and had to work 3-12. I don't function very well at night, and so there was no studying.

Today, Melissa and I traveled to Dallas to shop around and have some fun before the Pride events happen tomorrow. Probably not the best idea to spend my weekend in Dallas when I have five tests next week, but I didn't want to bail out on my friends. Too bad most of them bailed out on us anyhow.

We checked into our hotel at around noon and then we went to eat of Fuddruckers. We came back to our hotel, and I got onto my laptop to check my email. As I'm sitting on the bed, I see a bug crawling towards me. No big deal really; I'm not afraid of bugs. However, this bug looks a lot like a bed bug...which is disgusting. I quickly google bed bugs to double check my assumption, and I was right. We call the front desk and inform them that we would like a refund so that we can go to another hotel. Luckily they didn't give us any trouble and we got a nicer room at the Radisson down the street. Ten dollars more and no bed bugs is worth it :)

Once Josh arrived, we hung out for a bit and then went to eat at Freebirds. We also found a family reunion pack of Shiner which looked promising. Melissa bought it for Josh, since it had one of his favorite types they make. I'm tempted to buy me a 6-pack before we head back to Tyler tomorrow just so I can try all of them.

Currently, I am watching the Texas vs Tech game and Texas is winning. It's only the second quarter, but hopefully Texas will win. Florida state beat Tennessee earlier. Maybe I'll try and get to a game this semester. I never have time to actually go to the games, but it'd be nice to see one. All I need to do is find someone who enjoys football like I do, and is hopefully a guy. I'm tired of people assuming things when they see me out with girls.

After being sick for two weeks now, I think I have finally recovered. Last night at work, I had to sign a waiver saying that I refused to get the flu shot and why. It's kind of ridiculous to force the flu shot upon people. I've never gotten one, and I definitely wasn't going to get one while my immune system is on the rebound. All of the doctors suggested I get the shot, which I may, but not at this point in time.

Monday I think I will begin my training for the half marathon that's in March. I need to be disciplined and wake up early and just run my heart out. I also need to be a good little vegan and be sure to not eat so much junk. I think this goal calls for some experienced advise, but I really don't know anyone who runs these. I have one friend that does, but I don't know if he would have the best advice. He's one of those people who any day of the week, he could probably go out and run thirteen or more miles for fun. My fun runs consist of maybe a mile or two. I have a long way to go, but I am sure I can get there. Discipline is all it takes.

I'm looking forward to tomorrow, and hopefully the parade will be a lot of fun. Afterwards I need to study study study and not be distracted. Don't really have any goals for tomorrow, besides knowing all the material for my test tomorrow. Wish me luck.

It's Been A Week

Have you ever used Pandora Radio? It's pretty much the best thing, and I stay up late listening to it while I talk to people. I think my ears just want to be stimulated by music and they'd prefer not sleep. Good for my mind, but not so good when I need to stay awake in class.

Since last Wednesday, I have been sick, and still am slightly sick. If I could get this cough to go away, I'd feel much better. Oh and don't let anyone buy you Vitamin C drops when you're sick. They become addictive and you start using them like crack. It's like "Oh, my throat has a little tickle...where are those drops..." At 15 calories a pop, these should not be labeled as a healthy choice.

I worked all weekend, which was fun. Definitely saw a lot of cases of the flu in small children, so beware. Don't be all hysterical or anything, just be prepared to get sick.

Not much has happened this week. I did the normal routine, class, work out, sleep, repeat. I met my sister's friend this past weekend...I don't think he liked me since he hasn't talked to me since. It's okay though; I can't win all of them over.

This weekend I am going to Dallas with my two friends for the Pride events. However, it's supposed to rain all weekend, so I'm not sure how that will change our agenda. Maybe the weather will clear up and everything will go well :)

Test on Friday. No work this weekend. Lots of tests next week. Here's hoping everything goes well. I'll try and update more if something awesome happens.

Bleck

I know, I know. I haven't written anything in a while...but I have excuses!

Let's recap: Saturday, I worked with the new doctor and he was a lot of fun. He reminds me a lot of my friends that I have, and it was nice to get to know him. Sunday, I also worked which was also fun. I really really enjoy my job and I wouldn't trade it for anything.

Sunday night I went with my friends to a club in Dallas. Talk about fun. We ate at a restaurant called the Old Monk, which was a nice place. There were far too many drunk/smoking people, which I really don't care for. Overall, it was a good night and I'm looking forward to going back.

Monday was a holiday, so I spent most of my time working on my seminar. I gave my presentation today, which went decently well. It probably would have been a lot better had I of not been sick. Tuesday I lost my voice due to this sickness, and today I sounded like a transvestite. Luckily, I got through my seminar and made an A. I don't even care if I'm not a terrific speaker. I really don't plan of speaking in front of people during my career, so I'm not going to worry about it.

I also started a new adventure this week. I shall be a counselor for a camp and I get to plan activities and games for 5th graders. I've never done this sort of thing, but I hope it'll be a fun experience. I know a few people who will also be counselors, so that will hopefully make things easier. I'll let you know how things go with this. Sunday I get CPR certified for this position, which is definitely going to be awesome.

Other things that are going on: Pretty much nothing. I haven't worked out, which I'm going to attempt to tomorrow. I've also been working on some of my friendships. I have made a few new contacts and we'll see if they ever lead up to friendship status. I really hope they do, because so far, these people seem good. I could be wrong, but the thought of a best friend possibly happening is uber exciting to me :)

Anyways, I am tired. My immune system is swollen and the nyquil is kicking in. I'll try and update tomorrow, since I have a devious plan to enact.

Watch Out

So work today was pretty awesome. I really enjoyed working today and saw some pretty interesting injuries. I learned how to relocated a shoulder :)

Yesterday night, I hung out with Melissa and Becca. We went to eat at Villa Montez (which was okay, but I wasn't really impressed), played rockband, and went to Starbucks for Pumpkin Spice frapps. One thing that we talked about was what we were looking for in a mate. My specifications I was told were lame since half male population would fit in it. I guess saying that I just want a tall skinny white boy doesn't really get me far. I could add someone who likes to be outside and hiking/bicycling/canoeing/kayaking...I don't know. I think I'm just going to let fate happen and when that guy finds me, it'll be gravy.

Anyways, I really wasn't going to post anything but a conversation I had tonight made me decide to. Here's a short back story:

This summer, I met this guy who I couldn't believe would talk to me. I was awestruck, dumbfounded, enamored, and pretty much let my emotions flow freely. I was pretty much convinced that I was done for and I didn't want to see anyone but him. He lived kind of far away, but I went to see him (because that's how much of an idiot I am). Anyways, we had our fun that week and then I saw him once again later in the summer. The second visit I realized that my chances were over and done with. However, me being the girl I am, I didn't give up hope. Needless to say, it was all a big sham and I got the short end of the stick. I had already been dumped a month before hand and this just added onto it. What hurt the most was realizing that I had put a lot of myself into nothing, which made me realize how stupid I am. As you've probably read before, the emotions I felt were something new and amazing. If this was just a fluke, I really wonder what it's like to be happy with someone.

Anyways, this guy talked to me tonight and apologized to me for leading me on. Yeah, great, whatever. It really sucks bad to see how someone you thought so highly of is just like all the boys before him: A douche. The time I went to see him was pretty much just a booty call for him (and no, we didn't do anything R-rated, hardly PG). It sucks, and it sucks bad. Being apologized to made me feel even more idiotic. It's like "Oh, hey I realize that I duped you into thinking I really liked you, but I didn't, haha." Thanks. I doubt he even reads this, but if he does, he pretty much knows all of this. I told him. I'm still a bit sad over this and I shouldn't be. Stupid girl emotions.

Another idea I have, that I got from Becca, was to write a letter to my previous relationships and say goodbye. She's writing letters to her future husband, but letting go of someone might be easier if I just write what I wish I could say to them. Honestly, I probably could say it to them, but I don't think they'd appreciate it. It's not like I'm going to say nasty things about them, but rather they wouldn't believe it or they don't want to hear it. I know the last time I saw my most recent ex, he was quite upset about it. Putting people through emotional stress isn't something I like to do.

Sorry that this is kind of a crappy post. I'm looking forward to work tomorrow. I get to work with one of the newer doctors which is always exciting. Other than that, I will look forward to Sunday night. Hope you kids are doing swell.

End of the Week

Let's start off with goals accomplished for yesterday:
1) I finished my seminar and now I just need my adviser to look at it
2) Worked out in the evening, but not in the morning. Waking up was not going to happen
3) Didn't fall asleep in class :)
4) I think I ate pretty well all day
5) Definitely talked to someone I want to know better

So my goals all pretty much were accomplished. I'll think of some more and put them at the end of this post.

Yesterday was a pretty good day. Classes went well, I worked out, and managed to survive the day without being too exhausted. I've decided school is like a cold: It starts out and you slowly feel your immune system start to dwindle. Then you're exhausted, your head hurts, and all you want to do is sleep. I'm still in the beginning stages, but hopefully I can avoid the take down.

One eye opening event that occurred yesterday was the fact that I almost died. Literally. Now crossing the street shouldn't be a treacherous task. I looked both ways, and yes there were cars coming, but they appeared far enough away for me to cross. However, my judgment was wrong. The light blue car was definitely not going thirty but more like fifty. In the end, there was probably about a foot of space between me and the grill of the car. Luckily for me, I'm a fast walker or I probably wouldn't be writing this. This is not an exaggerated story, so be careful crossing the street. Dying from being hit by a tiny blonde girl really isn't the way I'd like to be remembered, so I'll have to convince myself to be more careful.

I did talk to a few people that I'd like to get to know better. I found the guy at the gym I used to see all of the time. He's a nice kid and so hopefully I can build on that friendship. I also talked to one of the grad students at school, which is kind of risky to talk about since someone might relay whatever I say about him to him. However, he is a person I'd like to get to know better, so I will try. I know his friends don't think very highly of me and that I don't even compare to his previous relationship, but I don't really care. I would just like to make some new friends and so I'm trying. I'm trying to focus on friendship, and if it blossoms into a relationship, I'm not going to complain.

My seminar is now in less than a week. I have the powerpoint, outline, and bibliography done, and now I just need to practice like crazy. Only problem is I have to work about 30 hours this weekend. Luckily, it's a holiday weekend so I'll have all of Monday to practice. Tuesday night I have training for a camp counselor position but I should know it pretty well by then.

Okay so there's nothing really interesting going on in my life right now. I had my first A&P lab today, and it's pretty much the best lab ever. A lot of "that's what she said" moments and inappropriate things go through my head, but I keep them to myself for the most part. I'm probably the oldest student in there, but I at least know some of the students. I'm definitely going to need to get an anatomy study partner, if you catch my drift...and I'm kidding...maybe...

Goals, goals, let me think...
1) Workout at least twice this weekend and tomorrow
2) Practice my seminar like a madman
3) Write my psychology paper

Sorry all of my posts are ridiculously long and talk about absolutely nothing. This next week should be pretty adventurous, so hang in there. Maybe I'll throw away my dreams and become a professional blogger. I'm pretty good at writing about nothing.

Insert Witty Title Here

So not much has happened in the past couple of days, thus why there hasn't been an update. I worked all weekend and didn't do any school work like I should have. I haven't had much want to do anything. I miss summer already.

This is the week before I have to speak in front of my peers/faculty members of the Biology department. Right now, I should tediously be working on my powerpoint so that I might have a perfect presentation and everyone will give me A's. This is a hit or miss thing. I only get one try to make a good grade, and it's even more stressful since I only have 2 weeks to work on it. There's two other people in the same boat as me, so hopefully we'll all do well.

My subject for my talk is fish and the causes of homogenization of freshwater populations. Sound boring? I thought it would be different from the usual, and I felt compelled to do something with fish since I had an intimate encounter with one last month. I don't remember if I stated this story here, so I'll repeat it.

When you go electrofishing, you're sending an electrical current through the water that essentially knocks fish unconscious. However, if the current isn't strong enough, the fish can try and swim out of harms way. So one day while electrofishing, I was walking with my net in the water trying to scoop up as many fish as I could. It just so happened that one of the larger fish in the water escaped the electrical pulse and tried to swim away....straight into my crotch. Talk about a weird feeling. I probably should have paid that fish for our encounter, but it readily swam away after gyrating into my groin. Funny story, I know.

Anyways, I hope my seminar talk goes well and I don't get too nervous. I'm supposed to advertise my talk around the biology dept. but I don't know that I will. I don't need people who I care about what they think about me coming and finding out how big of an idiot I am.

Let's think of some goals I should try and achieve tomorrow:
1) Finish my seminar powerpoint
2) Workout in the morning AND the evening
3) Don't fall asleep in class
4) Eat well all day
5) Talk to someone who I want to know better

If you read this, I hope your week is going well. I only know of two people who do, and I'm sure everyone else who does is probably someone who doesn't want me to know. Either way, glad you read this :)